The WEIGHTing game...

Ok, so if you're a Mom you know the story. Your body is never the same after having a baby...that is unless you are a Victoria Secret model (my theory is they go right into plastic surgery after giving birth). Ok, so honestly I was never happy with my body. I could never be happy with what I had. In high school I was physically fit, athletic, and a size 5/6. What was there not to like(Can I please get that back!)?

After baby #1 and even #2 I came to terms with the changes, dealt with it and moved on and kept drinking and eating what I wanted. I attempting exercise every so often when I had just a little bit of motivation but it never lasted. I looked pretty good despite all this. Oh, this brings to mind my dislike of this phrase, "You look great for having 2 kids!". ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!! Is that suppose to be a compliment. How about a simple You look Great! Ok, back on subject...No one tells those that want more then 2 kids that the 3rd pregnancy completely obliterates any chance of being pretty, and somewhat thin without even doing anything. HELLO!!! WHere was my mother when I told her the exciting news? I can't remember but she must have been standing in a corner giggling and saying to herself, "No more pizza for you!".

So, after I have my little bundle of boy, the usual happens. I lose most of the weight within the first few weeks. It's what happened a few months after is where the shock comes in. I started gaining, to me, so quickly. I knew I was bigger then I ever had been but I don't think I ever let myself notice, if that makes sense. Just recently I would see pictures of myself and be disgusted and it would make me sad. So sad I would eat cookies, or ice cream, or some chips. As an intelligent human being, I know that was not the brightest thing to do. It takes a while to get past just being plain old pissed off that you can't have all the goodies anymore and still look good.

Recently I went to my 10 year class reunion. Bought a new dress, shoes, & jewelry. Couldn't wait to see everyone but most of all I was nervous about being bigger then the size 5/6 I was 10 years ago. I had a great time and look back at all the photos and I looked great...for a Mom of 3. I guess since then I have been really feeling down. I finally woke up this week and told myself it was time to stop feeling sorry for myself. No one can change it but me. So, here I am craving cheeseburgers, sweet tea, guacamole dip, etc etc etc... I have lost 3lbs and I am walking as much as possible and working my way up to running and I'm actually enjoying it!!! I'm even enjoying counting my calories and learning about all the good and bad that is in all the foods I eat. Can this last? Could I really be on my way back to a thinner me? YES YES YES!!! I'm confident I can do this. Not to say I won't stumble and eat something bad for me every now and then but I'm hoping for the best. Here is to waiting for big weight losses and a healthier life!!!